Healing is an Inside Job

by Susan Moore

I can remember, as a young woman, watching faith healers on television, thinking passionately "What a show! This cannot be real!" Well, I was ignorant of the truth. Being blessed with excellent health most of my life and thick hair, I was stunned when, at the age of 45, my hair began to fall out in noticeable chunks. It started in small patches on my scalp.circles..bald spots appeared. As I brushed my hair in the mornings, multiple strands of hairs fell into the bathroom sink, in the shower, everywhere. Hairs I had never noticed, never thought of appreciating. Hair. Every woman has hair, I believed. How could I lose hair?

I ignored it. Denial seemed a viable option to choose at the time, but it did nothing to stop the hair loss. So, I tried hair extensions, which only kinda sorta worked because the hair kept falling out. Daily, I microscopically examined my scalp, looking for proof that this was but a temporary crisis resulting from stress over a philandering husband. After all, he had ended his affair, and my life could continue as it was before he got this silly idea. I searched for signs that the hair loss was ending, just as his affair had ended.

I found none. In fact, I found more hairs on the floor and more nude scalp on my head each day. Time for a specialist, I thought. OK.dermatologist, come on down! I go. The doctor said it's a disease-alopecia. A disease! Not only is it a disease, but it is a disease with no known cause and, worse, no cure. Shocked, I asked for a referral. Well, as serendipity would have it, the doctor had a colleague at UCLA who is reputed to be the hair-loss expert in the USA.

Aha! Now I felt that the hair problem could be resolved with some medical innovation, and all would be well again. I went. He looked. He frowned. By now I wore either a full wig or a hat whenever I left home. The specialist noticed that I had also lost some eyebrows and eyelashes. Denial had shielded me this penetrating fact.

These additional "goodies" now qualified me for a diagnosis of alopecia totalis, meaning that I am losing all of my hair- head, face, and body. I suddenly felt like a freak and no longer a part of mainstream society. I had an incurable disease! No cause, no cure. The small amounts of self-esteem I had salvaged for myself just took flight. I was a freak!

The specialist had a special cream-a concoction of his creation-which randomly worked. He produced before and after photos. I was frozen inside-denial no longer protected me from this truth. I paid and proceeded to the UCLA pharmacy-the only pharmacy to purchase the experimental cream.

After months of red, itching, burning, flaking scalp conditions, I had no new hair. I had less hair, in fact. I carefully drew eyebrows above my eyes each morning and glued on eyelashes prior to departing. By this point, my husband had found another object d'affection and, again, decided to motor off.

The major earthquake I experienced in my home in Thousand Oaks, CA was but a metaphor for what was happening in my life. Everything I valued was crumbling, save for my lovable about-to-be-teenager daughter. Family, marriage, home, lifestyle, love, hair-Poof! Gone! Rubble at my feet.

That was 1994. Today, 2001, long eyelashes and most of my eyebrows reflect back to me in the mirror. Most of the hair on my head has grown back. Last weekend, I went out for the first time in about 4 years without wearing a wig, a hat, or clip-on hair.

How did this happen? How did the "incurable disease" alopecia get cured? Eight years ago, I started my quest for spiritual growth and transformation. Along this journey I discovered the healing teachings through Science of Mind and New Thought.

These are spiritual principles that result in healing and thus revealing the love, beauty and harmony already present in the Universe. I began to test out the teachings to validate their authenticity. My goal was to have my hair back. What I found was a new way of living and loving and being. The scars of abuse within me were disintegrated with each insight, revelation and application of the healing principles. My hair, eyelashes and eyebrows are tangible proof of the healing power of the Spirit. I call it a healing, but it is a revealing of the true Spirit within. Today, I feel authentic and in integrity with my true self.

The teachings of New Thought are but the wise teachings so beautifully demonstrated by the wayshower Jesus. New Thought, Ancient Wisdom. Jesus demonstrated the power of his Father and proclaimed that we could do all that he did and more. I know it's true. I live it daily as I gaze into a mirror and see the proof-hair.

How does it work-the healing process? Actually, it is not a healing but rather a revealing process. Since we are Spiritual beings having a human incarnation, there is perfection within us which is our Spiritual self. All the junk we picked up-any limiting ideas of who we are and what we can do-need to be discarded so that our Spirit can shine the light that we are.

There is no power above It, and no disease can survive in It's light. The Power of the Spirit dissolves anything unlike Itself, Love. The feats that Jesus performed were in harmony with Spiritual Laws, which are as real as the physical laws of our Universe that we know well, such as gravity and electricity. I am grateful for the ride out of pain and into the light. I am so very grateful to my spiritual teacher and my spiritual counselor who held the vision of health and wholeness as I reclaimed my true identity. Spirit is now my best friend and more real to me than the chair upon which I sit.

Susan Moore received her practitioner training at the Agape International Center of Truth in Los Angeles and is currently affiliated with the Coastal Carolinas Religious Science Center in Wilmington, NC. She also earned an MS in Psychology and is a UNC graduate. Contact her at smoore1976@ec.rr.com or 910-762-0671.